Bittersweet

Yesterday was a day of change for me. After nearly four years, I am no longer the RSP (as Danny used to call me).

Things I won't miss:

• Reorganizing visiting teaching
• Emails from the stake RS president reminding me about things I all ready know
• Panicing when the RS teacher doesn't show up until after the opening song and prayer
• Feeling ultimately responsible when anything doesn't go well
• Feeling guilty because I haven't been inside every single sister in the ward's house (and even have some I wouldn't recognize if I saw them on the street--YIKES!) and haven't activated every single sister in the ward and haven't convinced all the young singles 18-30 that they really do want to come to our activities.
• Worrying that there isn't enough food at enrichment meetings, socials and funerals.
• Writing the ward newsletter and then waiting to see how it gets edited. (An editor is not supposed to introduce errors in a text!)
• Did I mention reorganizing visiting teaching?!

Things I will miss:

• Having people confide in me when they see me at the grocery store, the school, on the street, and in their homes.
• Being there at some of the most tender, most sacred moments when people are dying and being born or are suffering with serious challenges.
• The privilege of helping people fill their pantries with food and always giving a hug.
• Being aware of needs, and being aware of the incredible goodness of so many people who rise to the challenge and help each other--especially those who do it while carrying heavy burdens of their own.
• Interacting regularly with Priesthood leaders and seeing how very much they care.
• Being able to help plan and implement programs and activities that I feel are important.
• Knowing everyone who walks into the chapel every Sunday--and if I don't know them, know that I can ask them if they're new without being embarrassed!
• Working closely and becoming good friends with the wonderful ladies who served with me.
• And so much more!